tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post6433736201830921302..comments2024-01-04T23:14:07.378-05:00Comments on Chunks of Reality: Suicidal IdeationChunks of Realityhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05550378591715392039noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-42408717551011671262009-03-09T00:30:00.000-04:002009-03-09T00:30:00.000-04:00it's tricky and a good question. i've also been si...it's tricky and a good question. i've also been sick (flu, bronchitis or something for weeks!) and just the other day I was lying in bed thinking I needed to make a will. I got up, started to type and then stopped, realizing they were more suicide/goodbye letters. i was just SO tired and over everything. and then i wondered why am i writing these? i don't FEEL depressed. <BR/><BR/>I think we have to factor in a few things-being sick, coming off meds (i just weaned off Celexa and Abilify) and a variety of unknowns. But I do agree with you-I don't want to go through 30 or 40 more years of this. <BR/><BR/>my best to you...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-20745161577023341532009-03-04T17:52:00.000-05:002009-03-04T17:52:00.000-05:00Sometimes it is just the idle thoughts running amo...Sometimes it is just the idle thoughts running amok in your brain. No trigger, just one thought leading to another thought, and finally good sense kicks in and you get up and do what needs to be done. <BR/><BR/>Here's hoping good sense continues to kick in, because no kid deserves the sort of hell that comes from finding a deceased parent. <BR/><BR/>Hope you feel better soon, take care ok?Karen ^..^https://www.blogger.com/profile/05197114237324824217noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-47657637637463005892009-03-04T13:50:00.000-05:002009-03-04T13:50:00.000-05:00Glad you didn't go through with it. Not much to sa...Glad you didn't go through with it. Not much to say in the way of help sorry. Take care *hugs* xAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-56671309156805623582009-03-04T12:25:00.000-05:002009-03-04T12:25:00.000-05:00Whenever I hear someone talk about suicide I wish ...Whenever I hear someone talk about suicide I wish I could say something that would fix all their feelings. I never come up with anything even close. The only thing I know for sure is that you <I>can't</I> know for sure what tomorrow will bring and the surprise for me is worth waking up to every morning. I think it would be exciting to try to do one tiny little thing different everyday just for the adventure of it. It's amazing to me the power of each little movement we make. <BR/><BR/>On another note... is depression even a feeling? I always thought of it more of a non-feeling.<BR/><BR/>My wish for you today is hope and adventure...<BR/><BR/>KaylaKaylahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16847722197570213196noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-51679699410470615512009-03-04T08:31:00.001-05:002009-03-04T08:31:00.001-05:00The thought of my husband or kids finding my dead ...The thought of my husband or kids finding my dead body is what stops me from taking action. As for why you are having these thoughts, I couldn't say. My doc thinks it's from my OCD, but I'm not sure. I just think it's because I hate myself, and I don't want to live 40 or 50 more years like this.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-27952027915789075702009-03-04T06:19:00.000-05:002009-03-04T06:19:00.000-05:00It happens like that sometimes, I'm just sitting a...It happens like that sometimes, I'm just sitting around minding my business and then my brain begins to think about various ways to do the deed, not particually feeling depressed just detached.<BR/><BR/>Definitely talk to the pdoc and see if its the meds affecting you.<BR/><BR/>Big hugsGirlBluehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08375968122212076375noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-51144961849889580082009-03-04T04:47:00.000-05:002009-03-04T04:47:00.000-05:00Thanks heavens you didn't listen to your thoughts....Thanks heavens you didn't listen to your thoughts. (((((hug)))))Laurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03634190384284402700noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-30252465738475638222009-03-04T03:52:00.000-05:002009-03-04T03:52:00.000-05:00After reading you I did repost this:http://justana...After reading you I did repost this:<BR/><BR/>http://justana-justana.blogspot.com/2009/03/one-of-my-suicide-attempts-while.html<BR/><BR/>It is about drug-induced suicidal ideation I experienced.<BR/>I can totally understand what you have described.<BR/>I also thought about writing to my friends. Even wrote a couple of phrases before going out.<BR/>Take good care!<BR/>love,<BR/>AnaAnahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02889189418315180865noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-34142765749984452932009-03-03T22:54:00.000-05:002009-03-03T22:54:00.000-05:00I have suicidal ideation all the time, even when I...I have suicidal ideation all the time, even when I'm not in an acute phase. I think it's normal, and my shrink once said to me in a session that some people just have these thoughts every day. But as we learn in DBT, there's a difference between having the thought and acting on it. You didn't act on it. You recognized you were tired and you went on with your day. THAT'S what matters. Next time, you might just notice it and say, "OK, I'm tired...Thank you brain for bringing me these thoughts but I don't need them." Or something :) It doesn't matter - you are noticing and noticing is half the battle.Wandering Coyotehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01478039463695542535noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-16434361322372241192009-03-03T22:42:00.000-05:002009-03-03T22:42:00.000-05:00Thoughts feed more thoughts and it makes everythin...Thoughts feed more thoughts and it makes everything so much more ugly than it deserves to be. <BR/><BR/>Hugs your way. Not much more I can say. xxlindahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05392205573326695683noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-161067251191887469.post-79131942713263085082009-03-03T22:38:00.000-05:002009-03-03T22:38:00.000-05:00I wish I had an answer for you. You may be having...I wish I had an answer for you. You may be having a reaction to your medication (I think you just started prozac? I can remember which one you're taking without looking back) I would discuss it with your pdoc just in case. Some of these psych meds do cause suicidal ideation. My son has been on a lot of meds and that is one of the side effects of many of them. Please mention it to your doc, and be well. Please keep us posted. (((HUGS)))Queenneeneehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05878991539295738244noreply@blogger.com