Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Potential Job Update

I just received a call from the company I interviewed with yesterday requesting that I return this Friday at 11:00am for a follow-up interview. I will now be interviewing with the VP of the manager I interviewed with yesterday.
Butterflies are swirling in my stomach and I feel nauseous.
I sit here wondering why I'm not more excited and realized something: I'm scared that I'll mess up the next interview. My self-confidence is at an all-time low. It was difficult to act confident and happy yesterday. It was difficult trying to pass as a "normal" person. I felt kind of fake and hated that feeling.
Now this Friday I'm going to meet someone else higher up in the food chain and am scared that he'll see me for what I am: a psycho and a fraud.
Even though I feel this way I am also very grateful for the second interview request. It's a good sign that they are calling back so soon after just interviewing with them yesterday.
Still keeping my fingers crossed and thank you for all of the good energy sent this way. Things are looking good so far.

13 comments:

Wandering Coyote said...

Woo-hoo!

Anonymous Drifter said...

You're not a psycho or a fraud. Congratulations on getting this second interview and I'm sending some good thoughts your way that you'll be calm and relaxed. You're doing great to have gotten this far along in the process!

Linda and her Twaddle said...

Catherine, you are not a fraud if you choose to put your best foot forward. We ALL have to do that when we leave our cave and go out into the public arena. Humans have to wear many faces to live in harmony. You were asked for a second interview because you ARE good at what you do.

Lots of happy thoughts being sent your way.

snich said...

hi--
i'm new to your blog but I just wanted to say Good Luck! Just go in there and tell them what you said in your prev. post about why you want to work there. You are a good person and you deserve this!

Karen ^..^ said...

Obviously you know your material. Which is why they asked you back for a second interview. Obviously you are NOT a fraud, nor are you psycho. Silliness. that nasty little gremlin in your head is at it again. Swat the hell out of him. He needs to be put in his place. The very fact that you have butterflies indicates that this is something that means something to you. That's wonderful. You won't mess it up. You'll do great.

I am very happy for you. I know you will do very well. Good for you! You deserve this!!!

Dano MacNamarrah said...

I understand your fears. It is hard to "fake it 'til you make it" in general. Putting on a good face when you are dying inside never helps, really. Either you feel bad for ignoring your feelings, or you end up melting from the stress.

That said, everyone hides shit when they interview. It's part of the game. Hang in there. Almost all of us are frauds to some extent: Very few can afford to live honestly. Give yourself a break.

Mars said...

awesome. the fact that they called back meant that you da man - err, woman!!!

Chill and deep breathe. Insha-Allah everything will go smooth.

papercages said...

I wish you the best. (And I have my fingers crossed too) ;)

Daisy said...

You are not a fraud! It just means you're showing them your best qualities, which is what you're supposed to do when getting a job.

Praying for you, and cheering you on as well! :)

Cheri said...

I've been out of town for 2 days without checking blogs and so I've missed your last few posts (alright, alright - I was out of town at ERIC'S...but more on that later) so I'm so sorry I didn't see the post about your awful day on Tuesday until just now. How are you doing?

Congratulations on your interview and upcoming 2nd interview.... be sure to post right away afterwards about how it went!!! GOOD LUCK - you deserve every good thing that comes your way plus infinitely more.

Cheri said...

I've been out of town for 2 days without checking blogs and so I've missed your last few posts (alright, alright - I was out of town at ERIC'S...but more on that later) so I'm so sorry I didn't see the post about your awful day on Tuesday until just now. How are you doing?

Congratulations on your interview and upcoming 2nd interview.... be sure to post right away afterwards about how it went!!! GOOD LUCK - you deserve every good thing that comes your way plus infinitely more.

Cheri said...

Um, apparently I was a little mouse-happy above...sorry about the double post. :)

svasti said...

Its very good news!

You're not fake, you're just having a hard time.

I think its interesting that this job is work you'd enjoy, and perhaps that will make a big difference in how you feel, if you get the job?

In any case, I've got my fingers crossed for ya! :)

 
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