Sunday, April 25, 2010

Everything is Falling Apart

So much has happened. I haven't posted here in forever because frankly I felt tired of complaining. I feel that complaining is all I do here and I wanted to end the cycle. Because I was tired of complaining, I didn't know what to write about anymore. There was no urge to write.

The urge to write isn't back. It's just I had to voice something. I am completely devastated. My daughter is now living with her father. She moved out two weeks ago. I still cannot believe it.

Every day is an effort to continue. Every day something happens in a negative way and I have gotten numb to it. I want to stop this cycle of negativity. I want to stop the tragedies. I want to stop the bad news. I want to stop the depression and loneliness. I want to stop the blame and the shame and the anger and the confusion. I want to stop everything. I want to stop my life.

I'm surprised I'm not dead or in a hospital.

9 comments:

Stephany said...

YOU ARE STILL HERE.

Chunks of Reality said...

I am. I am going to blog another day about everything.

I've missed you and hope that you are doing well.

Linda and her Twaddle said...

Glad to see you back.

I know it seems hard about your daughter but I think it is common for teenagers to move in with the "other" parent.

Stephany said...

Be strong, you can do this.

Jewels Diva® said...

Did you go to see a counsellor?

It would seem that you really need to NOW!

DO NOT let yourself fall apart, take care of your mental health NOW!

eccedentesiat said...

Oh Chunks, I've missed you. Sorry things are so shite. I'm glad you're alive even if you're not. Keep going x

Karen ^..^ said...

I'm glad you're not dead or in a hospital.

My daughter is spoiled rotten and wants to live with her dad, but I tell her that if I have to be miserable with her effed up attitude, so does she. So with me she stays. Till she is old enough to go.

la said...

Out of all this badness, I'm glad that you're still here too xx

HappyStill said...

And I'm glad to see you too! Keep hangin in there xxx

 
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